There's something in you that the world needs

Hope

Holding onto the hope that one day it will be different

Dreaming that one day I won't have to worry anymore

Clinging on to my hopes and ambitions because that's all I have left

16 Things I've Learned By 16

1. People won't always treat you like you treat them; be mad, frustrated, but don't you dare take it out on anyone.
2. Do whatever you can to make people happy. Go out of your way to walk that dog, bake that cake, or write that letter.
3. Smile. Always.
4. Don't settle. Know what you deserve and don't tolerate any less.
5. Crying is not a sign of weakness. Cry. Cry hard, cry long, and cry loud. Sometimes you need some tears to allow you to see the world a little clearer.
6. Accept all of the help you're offered. Don't be too stubborn.
7. Cut off the people who treat you less than the best. You don't owe them a response or any sympathy at all.
8. Cherish the small things: the little insiders, the stupid messes, and the corny jokes. The small things become the big things.
9. This is a quote by C. S. Lewis, "Hardships often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary destiny." Tests and trials aren't meant for you to break down and lose hope, to push you up and beyond the issues, and strengthen yourself.
10. If you know something is wrong, speak up. Advocate, scream at the top of your lungs until you're heard,.
11. You will make mistakes. Don't dwell on them; don't ignore them. Accept them and learn from them.
12. Success won't be found overnight. It will entail more rejection than you ever thought possible and you'll consider giving up more times than you'll consider continuing. But don't ever give up.
13. Be slow to punish, but swift to reward.
14. Find your passion, determine your goals and ambitions, and don't stop until you get there.
15. The greatest triumph you will ever encounter isn't when you get knocked down, but your journey recovering and rising after the fall.
16. Things will never go as you hope or anticipate, and that is okay.

Wet paint

There is no point in trying to make some things better.

When you try to fix a messy, wet paint job, it almost always makes things worse. No matter how hard you try, or what else you layer on, it won't get better. The best thing you can do with that messed up paint job is to wait, let it dry, and come back and try to fix the problem at a later time. So often I am found trying to address my real life issues right the moment they happen, and sometimes this isn't the best case scenario. But, all in painting terms of course, if I mess up my painting and get a towel and wipe up the mess immediately, I don't end up having to wait the extended period of time to get my mess resolved. In my life, some things need the quick fix, and then they're all better. Other instances need to let the original coat of paint dry before I even make an attempt to clean it up. And then some, even more complex, need to also allow all of the other additional smears, wipes, attempt-to-fix-the-screwup coats dry as well. It's hard to fathom, but understandable, sometimes you have to drift apart before you can drift back together.

The Past Week (more interesting than it sounds i promise)

I haven't written in what seems like so long,
Actually it's been two days:)))
I write so often but I get so lazy to actually update my blog. LOL
Well in the past week, instead of being surrounded by the trashy hilljacks of Indy, I was surrounded by the slightly less trashy, Florida residents.
Monday March 30th:
best part- DISNEYYYYYY (and hot boys)
worst part- fifth wheeling for my cousin, aunt, and their boyfriends aaaand succumbing to getting a wheelchair with pain through the roof
Tuesday March 31st:
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Brain fog
........
I don't remember
Wednesday April 1st: (Autocorrect) "did you mean, the worst day ever?"
For starters, I woke up at FoUR ThiRTY
:) ok
riding to the airport was E X C R U C I A T I N G (horrible choice to type out such a long word like that)
The day prior, my grandpa and I had tested out to see how the suitcases would fit in the car, ensuring that I could comfortably sit without heightened pain and actually it fit well, good to go.
so after waking up at F O U R T H I R T Y, PLOT TWISSSTT, and the suitcases now fit differently, SERIOUSLY HEIGHTENING MY PAIN
and my grandpa's response was
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"tough"
OH
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*anger emojis*
(>_<)

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So, by the time we arrived at the airport at about 6 am, I was already bawling and losing my mind, all my six in the morning.

I also have something on my boarding pass so I don't have to take off my shoes when going through security and THIS LADY OH DON'T GET ME STARTED
she had the nerve to start going off on me about how I needed to take off my shoes because I wasn't in the correct line for what was on my ticket, I started to tell her about my medical condition and she felt the need to announce to every single being in the security line," I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR MEDICAL CONDITIONS OR WHATEVER ELSE YOU GOT GOIN ON, YOU NEED TO TAKE YOUR SHOES OFF AND FOLLOW PROCEDURE."
:)
:)
:)
hold
:)
me
:)
back
:):):)

I don't really need to give many other details but basically that is how the entire day went so THERE'S THAT:)
Thursday I got my hair cut (thank goodness) poor hair was suffering so much
And my hairdresser told me that the last person that cut my hair didn't cut it evenly :)))))))))
Thursday, lightning struck our house and we lost the functioning of two tvs, xbox, wii u, refridgerator and wifi.
God c'mon man what did I do to piss you off so much omg
Friday I went to lunch with Jessie* (name changed)
If you have never heard me mention her, here is the background story:
Speech began this semester as any other new class would, ice breakers to get to know our classmates, awkward hellos and a synopsis of what our speech class will coni=sist of, yadda yadda, boring boring
There was a quiet girl that had sat next to me for multiple days and one day I was just like "hey!!!!"and she looked at me like "( ͡ಠ ʖ̯ ͡ಠ)"
But over the course of these ten weeks, Jessie has really opened up to me and trusted me with some serious secrets. She has told me that she doesn't have many friends and I have been the only one keeping her going. (aw moment!!)
Anyways, lunch with her on Friday :)
Friday and Saturday both I wet to work, wanted to cry when I lifeguarded, but smiled sooo much during my swim lessons IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY
KIDS R GR8
And now, I am sitting and reminiscing about the glorious past two weeks without school and slowly but surely entering the beginning stages a mental breakdown because school starts back up tomorrow :)))))))
All for now, what are some topics I should write about? I love suggestions!
Also, SUCH exciting news. Last time I checked how many views my blog had and it had only 11, today it had 264!!!!!!!!
*screams so everyone can hear*